Insomnia's come knocking on my door tonight- but nothing's better than a good story to chase that ass away, no ? So here's the post you all've been waiting for - complete with pictures ;D


I remember several years ago , the day I was introduced to him . This very special him I lagged years to acknowledge . It was supposed to be a casual meetup with Kitty , Chris & the old clique , so I gave it a miss .
Memory has it that I was still struggling to let go of a love so special to me (: I say this with a genuine smile- it turned out better than I expected . Okay , I digressed . Now back to the story .

The day after during recess , a very hyped-up Kitty filled me in on the details of the Sunday outing . They went to Pastamania @ Cineleisure . Chris brought a new friend - Jeremy . Remember the "Jiemei" they introduced to me on MSN ? He was much fun to hang out with . She gave me an award-winning smile & showed me the pictures they took that afternoon . See how little priority his 'face' has against having fun ? She enthused , "You reeeeeally gotta join us next time , you'll sureeeeely give me real smiles !!"
Now you guys know why I love this girl of mine so much ? ♥

That day marked the start of my friendship with Jer . We started chatting on MSN regularly , exchanged numbers , then began texting too . I finally realized how close we actually got when Kitty chanced upon a text he replied to , which went something along the lines of , "Yup , misses . Haha , nights & muacks !" & jumped . You could actually see the curiosity bursting from her - her eyes went wide , pupils dilated , jaw falling . She was the one who questioned my feelings about him - was I actually falling for our Jiemei ? I pulled out & put some distance between us then . I was in dangerous territory , barely recovering from a heartbreak & almost getting infatuated/a bad crush on someone I wasn't really supposed to be falling for . Also , I couldn't risk having him feeling the same damn way as I , because it would mean hell .
We went out on group outings a few more times after that , then came the dreaded 2008 .


Breaking of contacts , tearful goodbyes - all because of a unworthy bastard . Well , I think we can skip this chapter already .


Then in late 2009 , I came across this picture on FB .
I'm not saying this to be dramatic or anything - it just made my heart skip a beat .
All the times I secretly (& guiltily) hoarded his contact details came back to flood my memories . Memorizing his mobile like it was worth my life before deleting it ; removing him from MSN but keeping him in Hotmail contacts & not changing my email ; keeping him hidden in the throes of my FB friends - Desperate , yes . But something in me told me we weren't over just yet .

Still , I was too cowardly & far too ashamed to even talk to him even after that bad relationship was over . I settled for the occasional sight of him on FB Newsfeed . Pathetic , I know . But what was I going to say to him ? "I'm sorry for leaving when you needed a listening ear & shoulder to cry on , now let's be friends all over again ?" That's worse .

So thankfully , magic/fate/destiny/god's will eventually took him to my blog (thankfully I loved this link enough to keep it alive) where we patched those painful years up & became friends again . Slowly but surely , our relationship improved . Don't ask me why I wasn't guilty enough to hold myself back from persuading him to break up with his ex though , I guess she was treating him way too shabbily .

Finally , despite all the obstacles we faced throughout the years , we got together . Being together suited us well though , he made me feel so comfortable in my own skin .
Sometimes it makes my heart hurt , knowing how much he understands me better than the vast majority , & still loves me better than I thought I deserved . & yes , I love him back all the more for it .

His love & acceptance left me in awe & disbelief for quite some time -
when I gave him a Birthday kiss to commemorate his 20th ,

when we adopted our first baby Stitchy ,

when he gave me my Birthday kiss @ Shabu-shi ,

Even now ,
I still wonder if I were in a dream to be loved by him this way .

It's a fact that there's bound to be friction being together . But although he pisses me off every now & then , I still find him endearing . It's also true that sometimes 2 people have to fall apart to know how right they fit together . & right now I really wish that he's going to be The One for me , for the rest of my life . ♥ ♥

I love you , Jeremy Heng (: